1.23.10

should you move on, or hold onto the past.
the future is unknown, scary.
the past is safe.
i could settle myself in the past and live off memories,
or i could live in the present and set out my future.
i am living in limbo-on the fence; and i don't know whether to jump or to stay.
change is scary.
but it's a new adventure.
i could say YES, and it could be great-the whole time my heart beating wilding in my chest, my brain telling me this is a terrible idea
OR..
I could shy away-lose contact.
make it like it never happened-stay in the past.
be the chicken that picks and tears away at my courage.
I could follow my heart as it yells to take a chance-its been so long
"come, start, risk it"
should i?
i've been floating so long-this may be the moment that brings my feet toward the earth, to grasp the dirt in between my toes, to know that I have found something sturdy to hold on to
...something that is not air.