FLOAT.

i wish to close my eyes, to close them and be able to feel nothing. that everything around me is dissipated -dissolved.
i want to float. float in an abyss that is all my own. if i think of flowers, then i am suspended in a field of wildflowers-each bending with the wind. if i think of water, then i am floating under the sea along coral and fish of different sizes and colors that tickle my skin when they swim pass.
i want to be able to detach myself, but without taking drastic measures.
i want it to be as simple as closing my eyes...
...so that when my lids fall and my eyelashes brush one another, i can anywhere. away from here, and away from life.
to have it all, but to gain nothing. to be nothing. to have nothing-but just that feeling of suspension in air.
to feel free from ties and the bonds that wrap around my hands and keep my wrists fastened together.
as a bird flying. as a fish swimming, i float.
i float over everything. i float over nothing.